More on a non-relationship

Sunday...
I find myself in a very cool situation. Three guys all texting me asking for dirty talk or sex. It brings daily fun into my ordinary real life and I've always got a smile on my face.

Remember the angry ex is the guy who only a few weeks ago was never going to talk to me again? Had another very flirtatious and lengthy text exchange with him this afternoon. I'm such a tease...but I'm tempted to sleep with him again cos there's stuff I can trade for. Does this make me a whore? I dunno, I'd enjoy the sex too!

Took some sexy underwear photos to e-mail to Brighton. There's no way we can have our fantasy afternoon in a hotel room next week so I thought I'd placate him with some new photos. See what he thinks of them.

Monday...
The angry ex asked if I wanted to "hook up and have some fun" tonight but I really don't want to. Maybe my crazy sex drive is waning or maybe I'm just not wanting to risk ruining my happiness by getting involved with him again. Not that I would want to get involved, I was thinking of just occasional sex. But actually I've realised that I'm worried about getting myself into a vulnerable position and then him becoming abusive again. I don't think I believe him when he says he can sleep with me and be nice and tender. At any moment he may turn as he used to. I'm thinking it may be safer to leave him well alone...but then that only leaves B and Brighton on the agenda. Hmm well I have started chatting to a couple of other guys online...he he.

Wednesday...
B just changed our date from Thursday to Saturday but I'm not unhappy about it because it'll be a proper sex, drugs and music all nighter! He offered either two quickies or one all nighter. No brainer. Haven't had an e all nighter for ages. I'm hoping it'll jump start my sex drive which seems to have waned. I can hardly believe it was only a week ago that I was being finger fucked by Brighton on the beach. Now I just don't feel very horny at all. So could this be the end of my exploration of casual sex? That would be disappointing as the only stranger I actually had sex with was the imcompetent brickie! (see previous posts) On the other hand it could be hormonal. I'm sure that my sex drive varies through my cycle. There are a couple of guys offering to talk dirty on-line but I'm not horny enough to be bothered. In the past few weeks I'd have gone for it and got myself off in front of the computer. So something's definitely changed...I wonder if it was the e that kept me feeling horny? After Saturday we'll find out.

The angry ex is blanking me again. Sigh...I'll steer clear I think. He's just no fun! Brighton didn't say a lot about the photos so I'm a bit miffed with him too. Generally just a bit more down than ususal and needing more sweet talk and dirty talk to raise my spirits. Should be chatting to Brighton on MSN later...

Later...
Had a great chat with Brighton this afternoon. He was laying it on thick and talking dirty really well. I'm sorely tempted to text him to come over tomorrow as I'm not seeing B til Saturday. But part of me thinks that I should wait til after Saturday to have sex with Brighton. Firstly because it might ruin the night with B and secondly because if my e theory is correct I'll be outrageously horny after Saturday and will have a better time with Brighton.

Sort of promised Brighton some more pics tonight. So far I've sent him ones of me dressed and in underwear but now he wants me naked. I'm thinking about it. Not sure if I'm in the mood but then again it may give his flirting a new lease of life.