More on a non-relationship

Wednesday...
From previous posts you'll remember that I had a casual sex date with Brighton this am in a hotel. So I was a bit worried when on Tuesday afternoon B started sending me hot texts and then asked if he could come up for a sneaky quickie that evening. In the end I tried to stop worrying and just enjoy myself. B and I had a lovely time and I struggled not to feel guilty that I had another guy lined up for the next morning! Part of me was regretting setting it up but then I decided that I couldn't possibly pull out as Brighton had paid for the hotel and everything. My main concern was that I simply might not be horny enough to enjoy myself as my sex drive has been down a bit and I'd had a lovely orgasm with B that night!

I was also nervous about the meet with Brighton because we'd had an MSN chat on Tuesday afternoon and I had started to feel a little pressurised. He was asking me to do stuff to turn him on and asked again about anal when I'd already told him I wasn't interested. I couldn't sleep properly last night and first thing this am text him to remind him that he had agreed to be in MY fantasy and that I had asked him many times if he was ok with that and he'd always said yes. I guess I was worried that once he had me in a compromising position he might try to make me do stuff I didn't want to do. Afterall I don't know the guy from Adam. If you remember, my fantasy is to be ravished by a stranger in the nicest possible way...sensual, gentle, passionate and totally dominant. No pressure on me is the idea! Basically trying to recreate the wonderful sex I have with B. Anyway he reassured me and said it would all be as I wished. Phew!

I arrived at the hotel and lay in the bed naked waiting for him. I had no idea if I was going to enjoy myself but was feeling quite horny. Thank goodness it was pretty good. I came in his mouth twice and he came in my mouth once and inside me once (with a condom!). We chatted in rest breaks and even went for a coffee afterwards. He's a pretty nice guy and very good at oral but I'm not sure I can be bothered with the palarva of trying to fuck him again. I might just be happy with B now that he seems to have more time to fuck me (Saturday (all night, yum!), Sunday and Tuesday so far this week).

So what of the other characters...the angry ex is off the radar again. Hasn't texted me for sex in over a week. On MSN J scares me a bit just because he's very experienced and I think he might be the type of guy who likes to pretend he's in a porno movie during sex. Or maybe he's flexible...I can keep him on the back burner. I haven't spoken to the kid for a few days but last time I did he was interested in meeting up.

It seems there's no shortage of guys who'll have casual sex with me. What a revelation! The internet is brilliant. Meeting a guy in a bar or something is so random and they're likely to be not very nice and probably not very good in bed. This way I can chat to them, see if they have any intelligence at all, and talk candidly about sex to see if they're likely to be able to do a good job.

I'll wait til after my and B's next e'd up all nighter before making any other casual sex dates. See how I feel then and keep you posted.